Meditation in treacle.
It was a long weekend.
We had two shows to contend with; a last minute spot at the Personal Development Expo, which was great. A very focussed show. And I had been booked last year to speak at the International Make Up Artists Trade Show. That was great fun. I spoke both days and had monumental amounts to think about for the organisation of getting there, assistants, model and so on.
SO, I sat, for my usual 40-minute meditation on Saturday morning and felt as though I was wading through treacle. My mind would not sit. Absolutely not. It really did have other plans. The time crawled alongside. I guess it was also stuck in the treacle. It really was torture.
Sunday was easier. Still sticky, but easier, and then this morning was a delight.
I get moments when I stop breathing altogether. I suspend the process for ages. Not really consciously, I just donÄôt want to move out of the bliss of the experience. I want to stay there and think of nothing, do nothing, feel nothing. Just shunnia; stillness. This is what we strive for, us meditators. That point where nothing matters. Nothing invades. All is quiet and still.
It is when this state of Äúbliss that needs nothingÄù that the mind is laid aside. There is stillness, peace, a release from the awful and relentless chatter; the insecurities, the questions, the fear and the judgement. Once you come to this place, even for a nanosecond, life takes on a whole new meaning. You learn to separate from the mind and to stop the chatter. It does not mean that you will never have a bad day again, but you develop the art of looking at the mind rather than being tied down by it.
A 45-day meditation is a great experience in all the marvellous places that meditation can take you. It is worth finding a teacher and asking for a meditation to do daily. Start with 11 minutes and keep a journal. I have no idea what it is that affects the experience. Is it the date, the moon cycles, the weather? It is a complete mystery. But the cycle of 45 days and the experience of writing about it gives you a marvellous overview of your response to life.